Over the last 72 hours more than one person in my immediate friendship circle have expressed concerns that I am becoming mentally unstable. That my behaviour, like my sleeping pattern has become irratic. That my moods are switching like a lightbulb and that they worry about about the amount I'm drinking and my general abusiveness towards certain people. (This of course being from the people who are getting pissed along with me at the time. Hypocrites? Maybe)

I think mentally unstable is off the mark. But maybe I have been different. It could be that I haven't seen my best friend for four weeks since he's started dating a new girl and become one of 'those' peoplewho never leave their copuple bubble. It could be that my best gay mate is having trouble dealing with the fact that we're only ever going to be just friends and now 'Can't be around me anymore.' It could be that I was dumped (via Facebook for crying out loud) not that long ago. It could be that my bro is off to Afghanistan again in a few weeks and is going to be shot at on a daily basis. It could be because recently I hate absolutely everything I write even when other people tell me otherwise.
It could be because the people I used to talk to about these sort of things don't talk to me as much anymore because I've become abusive moody and weird. Or in one case because I can't be what he wants me to be.

So...I've chosen to break my Deviant Art blogging virginity to say something.

Fuck this. I am fine. I have problems and so does everyone else. I don't know why everyone seems to want to make out like I'm an alcoholic head case, when there are people acusing me of this who have threatened to commit suicide multiple times in the last year. I am fine. People need to focus on their own problems and there a lot of them...instead of focusing on mine.

Mark is ok. Thanks. Rant done.